i miss writing here in blogdrive. i can write anything here cause i know in this site no one would ever bother to read my entries, cause no one knows this site is still being updated.

what's on my mind right at this moment? my mind is completely in chaos! i can't seem to think about ways to make my life better. i have a lot of debt and i don't have enough resources to pay it. i have a lot of plans for this sembreak and still i don't have enough resources to accomplish my plans.

aside from my money problems, my other problem is i'm so afraid to turn 20. it's not only the fact that i'm turning 20 and adding another year in my life, it's the feeling of turning 20 and still not having a boyfriend. hahaha.. i know it sucks to think that way. but i sometimes think of it, am i that kind of a loser? i guess i'm not attractive enough and i'm not pretty for people or guys to notice. no one ever notices such ugly face and unproportioned body right?!

i'm a girl, it's my right to rant about such things and it's my right to be insecure and be jealous to those girls who have the porcelain skin and the perfect body.

maybe i'm being punished by God for turning down such a nice guy. i know he's a good guy, a great guy and my parents would adore him for sure, because he is a family friend and a christian. but not all nice guys are the perfect match. and a question now pops in my head. how would you know if you're not the perfect match if you haven't tried to be with him? so many people already asked me that question. why didn't i tried it when it was there? i guess i was too scared to enter something that i know there is no assurance. our situation is too complicated for me to handle. we go to different schools and he lives so far from me. i could forsee before that if we will be together, we wil have no time for each other and we won't have time to see each other. and lastly i hate his demanding attitude. these were the reasons why i didn't enter that relationship even if i could and i know my parents will totally approved him.

well, i guess that's life. we can't have it all. my only wish now is to have someone whom i could share romantic feelings with. whom my parents would adore. and whom i would love and love me back.

my birthday is still on february, so no rush. but i really wish to have someone before i turn turn 20. for goodness sakes!

i really can't resist to update this site. and i really can write anything here because no one knows that i'm still updating this site. hahaha..

ciao. till next time.

nandito ako sa school ngaun, sa library, eh banned ang ibang websites, such as friendster and multiply kaya trip lang nagsulat ako ngaun dito.. hehe..

grabe! inaamag na tong blogsite ko na toh.. but anyway, i have a better site at multiply.

nalulungkot ako ngaun kasi na reshuffle kami.. i'm feel like aloner, though i have a companion, i'm still not in ease of spending long breaks with her.. but i guess time will help us grow closer.. but i really miss my former section and my friends.. i really miss them so badly.. nakakalungkot..

sige dito na lang.. time na eh.. hehe..

my new blogsite is: www.keypi.multiply.com
visit it! but not all entries are open for the public, unlike here..

till next time.. after 1 year uli! hehehe..

oh.. well.. its been ages since i last wrote an entry here..  i won't say that i was busy because i wasn't.

i'm leaving this site..

i found a better site than this..

well i guess that's it..

i won't say a lot.. it's nonsense..

till here..

this will be the last..

bye bye..

i still have my best entries here..

-KEYPI

After 2 days of no classes, my weekend was full of schedule, a despedida party here, a theatrical play over there, and a debut celebration.

 

Saturday was my cousins’ despedida party, and of course I was there to lend a hand. I got the chance to converse with Dominique’s friends. They are friendly and nice to talk with. Dominique received some farewell gifts from her classmates and high school friends. They are so thoughtful. One of her friends gave her a video presentation that made her cry because of the message “see you in ten years” The video made me sad also, but I didn’t cry, that’s so shameful if I did. Dominique only has less than 2 weeks here in the Philippines, and damn! days are so fast.

 

Sunday Morning: We went to UP to see a theatrical play entitled Shadows of the Reef. I’ll rate the play 10 being the highest, my verdict will be 6.5. I didn’t like it that much. It was good but not money worth it. Am I being too mean? I guess not, I just didn’t like it, that’s all.

 

Sunday Evening: It was Bianca’s birthday celebration. Preparing for the birthday was a bit a hassle because it was raining hard. I went to Maan’s house where I’m supposed to get dolled up but not knowing I left so many things here at home. Like my make up kit and some things I’ll need. So Dyan and I went home and we prepare ourselves here at home. And they just fetch us. About the place, the place was so beautiful, especially the comfort room. You have not to worry about the mirrors because there are so many of it. The food was good but not so delicious. One thing I like is the food was being served. It’s fine dining! By the way the debutant Ms. Alvianca Grace Carag was looking stunning with her apple green gown. And Ali Sotto was there, she is the debutante’s aunt, a sister of Bianca’s father. The program was okay, it’s a bit long but it was alright. It was not that boring maybe because of the people whom I’m with. Good thing I brought my cousin’s cam, we have so many pictures. It was really fun and I so much enjoyed it.

 

Till here

No classes for today! It’s GMA’s SONA!

I had no classes for 2 whole days thanks to my professors and tomorrow I won’t attend my PE class. I have to go to my precious cousins’ despedida party. I want to meet their classmates. Haha…

            My mother is in her early fifty-s, and I think she is in her menopausal period.  Oh sure it’s not big a deal for others but for me it is. She’s becoming an awful nagger! She is easily annoyed! She’s getting mad even with the smallest detail of everything! And she’s getting into my nerves! For example, last Thursday, she woke me up early in the morning with her loud shouts! And to think that I don’t have school that day! Damn! I hate it! Lahat na lang! grabe na talaga! Kaya minsan gusto ko na lang umalis ng bahay kaysa naman nandito ako tapos puro boses na lang niya naririnig ko! Lagi na lang siyang galit!  And the hard thing about that is she’s accusing all of us (my dad, Carlo and me) for everything except my older sister! Hay! Hindi naman lagi napapagalitan si ate, kadalasan kami! I think she’s the favorite! What more can I say? My life is turning into something bad. And I don’t like it. And I really think that she’s being this way because she is in her menopausal period of her life. But I didn’t expect that it could be this tough and challenging. My patience is slowly depreciating.

            Plus, I still can’t get over of the fact that my bestest cousin is really leaving the Philippines. I’m supposed to give her a farewell letter, but I don’t know how to start. And feeling ko pag gumawa ako baka ang haba non. I’m planning to just give her a farewell gift. I don’t know. I’m short of cash!

Sh*t! My life is turning to a big mess. Because of what’s happening around me. I’m in no doubt hating it!

By the way, it’s GMA’s State of the Nation Address on Monday. The terrible things about it are her stupid promises and there will be classes on Monday! Damn! And to think I’ll attend Bianca’s birthday celebration on Sunday night and my class for the next day is 7 am! In addition to that I still have a reaction paper to finish! (It’s about field trip!) What’s happening with me and my life?! It’s in a total mess!